I wasn't named

I wasn't named. You didn't even see me properly. I may have existed, but as a problem for you. You didn't want me, but I am here now and all you want now is that I vanish or die somehow.

I listen all of this, but still I like the space in here :) it's cozy and it feels home.

May be I won't be here for too long.

As I may be cut down, sucked out or just melted down by some bitter pills :)

But it's fine. May be I'll enjoy some last few days or hours maybe.

I am healthy and I am all excited to come and grow and see this amazing world now, but, it won't be possible I guess. But it's okay. Some other lifetime maybe.

I know, you have your reasons to abort me. I know you don't feel good about aborting me maa, and it's okay. I don't blame you for that.

Just do the least. Just pray for me :)

Just acknowledge me. I may have not been named but don't forget me. Please.

Tell my brother or my sister that I existed and I had to leave soon, you can lie about the reason ;)

But just let them know about me. I hope you find happiness and love and light maa :)

Bye!

Meethi cheeze

Ajeeb haina hum bhi
Jo pyaar deta hai, uss se pyaar chahte nahi
Aur jo nahi deta, ussi ke dhar bhatakte phirte hain.

Chahne wale koi aur hote hain
Par dete wo level hum kisi aur ko hain.
Kyu?
Shaydh dhikawa ke jhaanse mai aakar.
Mithas ko chakk kar.

Samaj tho baad hi mai aata hai.
Ki jo mithas achi lagti thi, wo mushkil ghadiyo mai saat nai deti.
Aksar wo kadwai dawai hi hume khade hone ka sahara deti hai.

Phir thodi samaj aati hai zindagi ki.
Par ye tho sirf ek padhaav hai.

Naa jaane aise kitne jagah
Hum aise hi anjaan bhatakte phirte hai
Hur roz, jhaanso mai khelte huye, apne aap ko na-chahne walo ke haato mai sopte hue.

Par shukra hai ki ek ghar hai.
Ghar hai jahan maa papa hai.
Bhai behen hai.
Hai kadwe jitne bhi, pata hai, wahin mera saccha jahaan hai.

After 13 years

School time was the best time of my life till now and the ones that I met in school will always hold a special place in my heart. Be it even 30 years from now, I'm still gonna have the same longing for meeting my school friends as if it was just yesterday that I had come to Mumbai leaving Jabalpur.
I never ever thought of meeting my school friends anytime soon. I searched for them on social media websites, and luckily I found a few, some are still missing. I connected with them, made some plans to meet soon, but I knew on the inside how tough things are as of now and it won't be possible anytime soon for me to travel to Jabalpur.
While searching and connecting to everyone online, I found this girl, with no name on her profile. No mention of anything related to our school, just that we had mutual friends and her face. That face reminded me of things, of mornings, of assemblies, of annual days, of recess, and what not. I followed her, and she followed me back too. We had a conversation after that and then I came to know who she actually was. Now I was actually able to remember, who she is.

Fast forward to some months ahead, and she was here in Mumbai. At first I didn't really knew what to feel, how to react when she reached out to me and asked me if I was free to meet. I didn't feel anything special at first, which was strange. We planned and we met. I showed her around some place in Mumbai, still I wasn't feeling things, I should've. Although I was very happy the moment I saw her. It was a flashback into dreams and memories and what not. The day ended and as I was heading back home, that is when it actually hit me, what had just actually happened.
I had actually met one of my friends from school time after 13 long years, and so much  has changed and yet our talks and stories remained the same. How magical it was to think of it.
I met her the other day too, and this time I didn't really show, but I was the happiest :)
And this time, I didn't miss a moment of realizing whatever that was happening was once a dream for me.
I'm thankful.
Priyanka, or any of my school friends if you're reading this, you may see this, or question this as to why it has to be so hyped.
But I feel, that is how actually things went for me.
That is how a part of me was taken away from me, forever, when I left that place and never got filled again, I just learned to live with it.
Dreaming. Wishing.
Now, thanking, when it is actually happening :)