We have to utilize this time

"Ye jo gehre sunnate hai, waqt ne sab hi ko baate hai"
We all face loneliness and then a phase comes which makes everything alright, everything happy and loneliness fades away and just when you're quiet into enjoying this phase loneliness kicks in again, and that's how the graph of life is. It goes up and then comes back down and we cannot do much about it.
The only thing we can do is, to not feel bad when we're lonely. To do something, try to utilize this time so that when the graph comes down again you don't feel bad about it.
What I have chose to do is, writing. When graph comes down I chose to write and even if it goes up I chose to write. But the writing gets better when the graph is down because then I have something to write about. I feel more about things, I deeply realize things. I bleed more. So, I am able to write more.
So for me in loneliness something good comes out of it and I don't feel bad about it anymore.

Mumbai - The city of dreams

I've been in Mumbai for past 7 years. Mumbai has been amazing till now. It has treated me well, not nicely but how I wanted a city to treat me. It has given me days to cry and days to die for, from the hectic days in local trains to fun, stable and tension free time at beaches. I feel lucky, I live in this city. The life is fast, there is a lot of pollution out there and it feels uncomfortable at times but Mumbai has something which drives me and keeps me going. Like your first love, you cannot be detached from it even if you're uncomfortable with it. I don't have to mention the nightlife in Mumbai, almost every journal, every magazine, every newspaper has covered about it. For me it isn't about the Pubs and Bars that are in Mumbai, but it is way far than that. It is the small things like the air, it becomes lighter in the night a lot more easier to breathe in and breathe out. You could hear the sound of vehicles, horns and even trains but from very far away standing on some building's terrace and I don't know why and how, but it feels magical.The monsoons in Mumbai is something to die for, although there are heavy rains which cause a lot of trouble on the roads but there are little moments when you feel good. It can be as small as being in a traffic jam, relaxing and leaning back on the seat of you Taxi with the windows half open feeling the cool breeze and water droplets touching your body and some nice song playing in your earphones. Moments like these are remembered for years, because that is when you feel the most comfortable with yourself and it's beautiful. At times you may be at hotels which may have cozy beds and couches all around but you'll always find your comfort zone somewhere else, somewhere you can chill and relax and you feel good from within, may be on a mountain or under the sky. 

This is a conversation I had with a stranger on a train when I was coming back home after giving my competitive exam. 

Me - Hie, I'm Srikanth. 

Stranger - Hie, I'm Shivani. 

Me - Where do you live? Are you going back home or heading somewhere?

Stranger - No. I'm heading back home only. I live in Andheri. I'm new to this city. Just moved in a week back. 

Me - Wow! Welcome. So do you like it here? How has Mumbai treated you till now?

Stranger - It's good. I haven't seen much of it, but so far it's good. But I always have a fear of getting lost in this city, it's massive. 

Me - Oh! Do I look like I'm afraid now?

Stranger - No. 

Me - I'm lost too. I don't know how to get back home, but I'm figuring out somehow by asking people. See, this is why Mumbai is amazing. You never have to worry about getting lost in this city. There are local trains, Taxi's, Auto's, almost everywhere. If not them, there are people around and Mumbaikars are the best to show people their ways back home. So just roam around have fun while you're here, chill. Don't worry you're home.

Shivani is a good friend of mine now. I sometimes give her suggestions to hang out when she is in a dilemma.

I have to be happy to survive

I remember the time when I was in 7th standard. When things were much simple and the only time I got worried was when the teacher walked into the class with a bunch of checked exam answer sheets. That's it, that was the only thing for which I would get worried at that time. For everything else I used to be so chilled and so casual. I miss those days. The days passed by and everything changed, no more school, college days made me realize some bitter truths of life. Now I am no more the same person I used to be, I am more worried about things that don't even matter. Less chilled. Taking everything seriously to a point where it starts getting out of control and  becomes painful. But I have only been here for 19 years, I'm still learning to live and starting to crawl. Maybe someday I'll get over all of this and find the ultimate truth. Maybe someday I won't be having anything to worry about. But until that day, for now, I will try to be happy, as happy as possible. Be positive by avoiding all the negative thoughts that try to get into my mind because the truth be told, all of this would ultimately come to an end and none of the worries and problems would matter.

We all are artists deep inside

Just tried my hand when I was getting bored

Trying out some fonts

When in doubt 

Karam Karo Phal Ki Chintah Mat Karo.

Probably the first design on which I was very clear on and the output gave me immense pleasure. 

Life flies away

A lot of hard work was done for this one, used both Photoshop and Illustrator for this design.