This is something which I wrote last year. This got lost somewhere in my Evernote notes, found this out last night and was amazed to read it. Here it is!
We are here for a limited period of time. This period is called life and what we have to do is, just live. But what living actually means? Is that simply being still and going on with the flow of life. Not doing anything specifically or is it experiencing all of the things in this world,be it good or be it bad. May be that's how we learn. But there is one thing which I think we should avoid, which is tough and that is getting attached to people. I find myself getting attached to every other person that I meet sometimes. May be he or she won' be there again anytime soon, but I just stick to them so much. That's the reason I get so much excited when someone praises me and unknowingly it somehow becomes a need. I do things so that others feel good about it, so that they get pleased and in return they could praise me. May be that's the reason I try to be a lot more funnier than I am, try to say things which don't come from the inside, but are more of mentally made, just to please someone. At first it was great, I was doing things to please people and the outcome was just the way I wanted, they praised me and the feeling satisfied me. But then as the time passed by things got a lot more different. So I was faking myself. Trying to be a lot more cooler. I did that for a very long time and it didn't feel good. As of now I don't have any friends, leaving a few which too are the old ones, sticking somehow by my side.
We are here for a limited period of time. This period is called life and what we have to do is, just live. But what living actually means? Is that simply being still and going on with the flow of life. Not doing anything specifically or is it experiencing all of the things in this world,be it good or be it bad. May be that's how we learn. But there is one thing which I think we should avoid, which is tough and that is getting attached to people. I find myself getting attached to every other person that I meet sometimes. May be he or she won' be there again anytime soon, but I just stick to them so much. That's the reason I get so much excited when someone praises me and unknowingly it somehow becomes a need. I do things so that others feel good about it, so that they get pleased and in return they could praise me. May be that's the reason I try to be a lot more funnier than I am, try to say things which don't come from the inside, but are more of mentally made, just to please someone. At first it was great, I was doing things to please people and the outcome was just the way I wanted, they praised me and the feeling satisfied me. But then as the time passed by things got a lot more different. So I was faking myself. Trying to be a lot more cooler. I did that for a very long time and it didn't feel good. As of now I don't have any friends, leaving a few which too are the old ones, sticking somehow by my side.
I've realized many things now, to not to be fake even if it feels bad, to not to get attached to people because loneliness is the bitter medicine which will heal me and will make me a lot more stronger. Being lonely makes me discover who I am, I develop myself in pain.
This year has been an amazing year. I'm seeing myself change every single month and day of this year. I have experienced so much in this year. I'm thankful to god, and thankful in general for all that I have. I'm happy.
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