A letter to my younger self..

Hie,

      I won't be telling you who I am or anything else about me, all I can tell you is, please continue reading as this may change how you feel about things, and change you completely as a whole. And may be, just may be, I may never exist. But only if you pay attention to the things that I've written here, and you choose to change from now onwards. So my dear, here it goes.

1) You're young. Soft. Gentle. Don't really want to hurt anybody. Scared sometimes to what may come up with a wrong action of yours. You're carefull. Sometimes you care more than you need to. It hurts, but you don't show it to anyone. I want you to change. Change for better. Don't get scared by people who behave to be stronger than you are, it isn't that you were bullied anytime. Just that you don't speak up. Follow, when you don't feel like doing it. Don't do that, it will harm only and only you. Fight if needed. It will pain. It will be uncomfortable. But it's okay my dear. 

2) It's totally okay to not have friends for a while. Don't worry if people don't accompany you when you want them too. You need to learn that not eveyrone will like you. That's fine. You need to learn to live alone and take pride in that. 

3) Never show a hint of innocence on your face, for they take this as a sign of your weakness. Weak, which you aren't. You're strong. Tough as a rock. Ready to face anything and everything which is thrown upon you. So be that, show them what you are. You are different, meant for something different. Be that. Do that.

4) Don't think about what other people think about you. I know you do that a lot, everyday, anytime you're free. You're on it and so worried about it. Like I said, not everybody's gonna like you ever. There will be lovers, there will be haters, there will be friends, there will different kinds of people everytime. They will have all the different opnions about you. But what matters is my friend, whether you take them into your head. Be it goood. Be it bad. Never take their opinions up to your head. That will make you sick and I know you never want to be that.

4) It's okay if you loose. It's okay if you fail. It's a blessing in disguise. Only if you fail, you will learn and trust me failures will take you places where winning never can. It will make you stronger, smarter and a better person if you choose to stand up everytime you fail. Which you've done everytime, just keep doing it without any hesitations or any second thoughts. Because that's the best you can do. 

5) Family is first. That being said not everything they say is right. Don't take their opinions up to your head. They say because they feel like that. That doesn't mean you're like that. They may have a different perspective, but it never can define who you are. So please don't get upset, when they something harsh or uncomfortable to you. Don't cry. It's alright. You have to be strong. Face it, because, I promise, better things wait for you. Things you would've never imagined. 

6) Work hard. I know you do, to the best of your ability, but do some more. It will benefit you and only you. 

7) Look at yourself and only yourself. Don't compare yourself with someone else. You're different. If someone has better things and knowledge than you, that it no ways decreases your self worth. Given the situation and time, anyone can succeed. Understand this and look at yourself and work harder to be a better version of yourself everyday.

8) Do crazy things. Don't be afraid. It's okay if you get bruises or broken legs. But never ignore what your heart says to you, like you always had. Brain is a fucked up place. If you can escape from that place, even for a while, do that.

9) Lastly, people do think about you. People do care about you. Don't feel so down when people don't respond to you or be a littler harsher on you. You're sensitive you know that, they don't. But that doesn't mean, they don't care about you. They do, just that they're being a version of themselves. You don't need anyones justification. You're awesome. You're amazing. You're a badass. Realize that. Fuck the world. Respect all. Fear none.